tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-43187294486812788652024-03-14T06:12:48.467+01:00Book of StarsA highly personal Magic book in the writing.Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.comBlogger287125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-14379404100749707502017-01-24T21:37:00.001+01:002017-01-24T21:37:16.947+01:00Elemental<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="font-family: "Trebuchet MS",sans-serif;"><span style="color: #660000;">Last night he wrote, asking me for money. "Donation" was his word of choice.<br /><br />I called him. He explained. In legitimate self-defense, I used his strategy and became ice. I wished him goodnight, hung up, went back to bed. He called within the next second. From there, conversation couldn't be anything healthy, so I just braced myself. We've been in this for months now. And the inevitable happened. From ice, I became FIRE.<br /><br />I said all I wanted. I vented. My rage and anger and resentment all came out, whether it was all necessary or not. Helpful or not. Wise or not. I just didn't care. I don't remember who hung up, but I felt terribly bad afterwards, like I was too cruel to him. After all, I love him. So I called him back. Drama, baby, I was apparently thirsty and insatiable for it.<br /><br />"Was I too harsh with you?"<br /><br />Third time is a charm, so conversation was better this time. But he progressively showed his true colours: narcissistic, inconsiderate, cruel. I felt even worse for ever feeling bad for him, and I hung up.<br /><br />I wanted to call him again tonight, but I didn't. I learned my lesson last night, and I came to write instead. From fire, I became water.<br /><br />Eventually I will learn to thaw from ice to water without having to burn in flames in the process.</span></span></div>
Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-68755256153906461862017-01-22T21:49:00.002+01:002017-01-24T21:37:57.044+01:00A prayer for commitment<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #660000;"><span style="font-size: small;"><span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;"><span style="color: #783f04;">It's been almost exactly 10 years since I stopped working my penmanship magic round here. I admit I forgot what I wrote about, but the process itself is still very much alive in my memory: what started as a rant inevitably led to an unexpected insight, or gradually shifted vibration during the writing and ascended towards a very inspiring revelation, with an experience of upliftment that would be felt by all my loyal readers on Tribe.net too. Real. Very, very good days.<br /><br />But I forsook my magic. I betrayed it, just like the last two men I've loved these past ten years have betrayed me. Why? Because just like they were enticed and seduced by other men, I was lured away from my power, my nature and my Truth. Consistenly, I have let myself lose faith and interest in my own process and worthiness, to gain acceptance, harmony in relationship and approval. Bad idea, immaturity and a terrible investment, but alas, I didn't know better then.<br /><br />I am now in the middle of a small life makeover (again). I start a new job in March, my fickle social circle is changing again, I am finally, mentally letting go of my abusive ex-boyfriend that has been my worst addiction ever. Writing myself through the vicissitudes will help me comfort myself, shine my light, recount on the go, digest, recollect, take it in stride. Make magic. Live in clarity and passion. The way I used to. The way we all should.<br /><br />Please, blog, let me commit to you again, like I once did and like nobody else has ever committed to me.</span></span></span></span></div>
Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-79222137170216611062014-09-05T10:51:00.000+02:002014-09-05T10:55:25.407+02:00Deity Challenge: XXIV to XXX<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">XXVI.<br />From unwillingness and intrigue, maybe even avoidance, though more like resignation of ignorance (on my side) to revelation, enthusiasm and adoration, with the help of Hekate. While engaging a ritual to the Lady of the Key and the Torch in early August, I got to write and pronounce a request for blessings, and I focused on Wisdom, Light, and Understanding. As I rode the São Paulo metro back home that night, I started mind-mapping on my tablet a wealth of ideas and clarity, and it kept gushing down on me from the Source for over a month. I could only say yes to it all. That is how my actual realisation of the Fourth Branch of the Mabinogion happened in the first place.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Arianrhod is a marvel of Goddess spirituality, She is a powerful notion and presence in All-That-Is, and very few deities are as sublime, transformational and encompassing in their blessings as the Silver Wheel is. Wholesomeness is distinctive in Her touch. I understand and accept all that now.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">XXX.<br />Read the old stories. Read them <em>with your heart</em>. For all we have, despite being tainted, twisted, corrupted and distorted in incredible ways, they are the living repository of emotions, desires, processes and values of our Heroes and Gods. They were written the best way our Ancestors found, in order to teach us generations down the road. They are our heritage. Accept them, appreciate them, protect them, and above all GO BACK TO THEM. Read these stories, tell and retell them, work with them, reenact them, act them, journey into them, ask questions to the characters people in them. They are shades of Divine Light. Open the way to understanding. This is Great Work, and this is (one way) how we retrieve our identity, our magic, our knowledge and our Ways. And all of these are Arianrhod's blessings. Accept them, and help others find their way back to Her.</span></div>
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Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-13935766290423794762014-09-04T12:41:00.003+02:002014-09-04T19:38:24.991+02:00Deity Challenge: XIX to XIII<div style="text-align: justify;">
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Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-75205569323891256882014-09-03T13:10:00.001+02:002014-09-03T22:56:12.548+02:00Deity Challenge: XIII to XVIII<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">XVI.<br />I learned once that there are two types of Mother Gods. One is the Earthly Mother, whose attributes are usually a river, the land, the crops, and education and everything that nurtures. The other is the Cosmic Mother, whose attributes are the ocean (check for Arianrhod), the Stars (check), the Universe as a whole (check) and everything that generates out of Herself (check).One is warm, the other is cold. While the Cosmic Mother generates, the Earthly Mother cares for the offspring, much like Uncle Gwyddion did for Lleu. Arianrhod represents thus the Cosmic Mother in the Mabinogion and Welsh myth.</span></div>
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Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-62282479957509653652014-09-02T12:05:00.003+02:002014-09-03T22:56:33.059+02:00Deity Challenge: VII to XII<div style="text-align: justify;">
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">As a Star Goddess and virgin mother of twins, Arianrhod has many sisters in other cultures (as already mentioned in VI). The Egyptian and Thelemic Nut/Nuit can be a variation of Her too, as can be the Native Brazilian goddess Ceucy, the local Star Goddess, a virgin mother who gave birth to a Hero-God under the twin trees of Good and Evil. And I do believe the Goddess of the Whirling Rainbow is a form of Arianrhod.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">IX.<br />By far the most common mistake about Arianrhod is placing Her anywhere in a cycle pattern, whether a season of the year, a calendar day, or any stage in a process of transformation. A recurring example is placing Arianrhod as the Mother in the Triple Goddess pattern, or associating Her with the full moon. She is many things, but She is NOT anything temporary or shifting. She is the whole Circle of Life wherein Maiden, Mother and Crone stand; and She is the whole cycle of Moon phases. Although the Dancer in the Labyrinth is an attribute of Her, She Herself is not the Dancer. She is the Labyrinth, and the Dance itself.</span></div>
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Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-50875153491987480252014-09-01T12:46:00.000+02:002014-09-03T22:56:45.181+02:00Deity Challenge: I to VI<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">I.<br />Arianrhod is a British Goddess about whom not much is really known in a historical sense. Her name means "Silver Wheel", and she is related to many other deities in the Welsh/British divine team, especially the Goddess of the Land Dôn, the God of Magic Gwyddion and the Hero-God Lleu Llaw Gyffes. The main source to Her is the fourth branch of the Welsh Mabinogion where she plays an important role, but Her name also comes up in the Trioedd Ynys Prydein. She does not have a consort in history or in myth but is the (virgin) mother of twin boys, and if She ever had an actual cult, nobody left behind traces of it.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">II.<br />I read the Mabinogion for the first time about 17 years ago, and with the notable exception of the story of Taliesin (first story I told live both as a training and performing storyteller), much as I loved the drama in the whole thing, I did not understand crap on what those mental people in the stories were all about. So I disregarded the Welsh as uninteresting to my personal Pagan revivalism and neverminded it all, then continued my research, but the Fourth Branch specifically would never leave me alone, and everywhere I read about other myths, legends, stories, rites and symbols, whether Celtic or from other cultures, my mind drew parallels and conclusions of its own volition based on the story (more like stories, really) of Arianrhod's drama-ridden family. And as we spent more time together over the years, even though I did not plan to, I started to like Her and Her folks.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">III.<br />From Her name, Arianrhod is the (Silver) Wheel. In an agricultural society like the one She hails from, wheel means also the year, and all cycles, including moon phases and the stages in a person's life. It also means indirectly growth. That said, Hers is also time, and no-time. Arianrhod'd den is Caer Arianrhod, which is the Ancient Welsh name for the Northern constellation of Corona Borealis, so just like her icon is the wheel, Her quarter is North. Caer Arianrhod is thought to be at least related to Caer Sidi (Spinning Castle) and Caer Droia (the classical 7-circuit labyrinth that is found pretty much everywhere on Earth where human beings settled). I have never found anything that would discard this notion, and actually, as cycle, Arianrhod's wheel is definetely in movement, so a spinning tower is a very appropriate symbol of Her. She is indeed a very dynamic Goddess based on my personal experience. And the Labyrinth is associated with Arianrhod for many reasons: Her constellation is also mythically related to Ariadne, the Cretan lady of the Labyrinth, and the classical Labyrinth is walked sort of in spirals, in and out, deosil and widdershins, and spiral-like is also Caer Arianrhod. So, I do include the Spiral and the Labyrinth as Her symbols. And when functioning as Her priest, I wear a silver ring with triskeles on it. Other than the stars, Her castle is also said to be in the Western sea (like many Celtic Goddesses) and She is the mother of sea creature Dylan ail Don, but I am not so sure the Ocean and the West would be associated with Arianrhod too.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">V.<br />In the Mabinogi, She is the daughter of Dôn, the Earth Mother, niece of Math ap Mathonwy, mother of Dylan ail Don and Lleu Llaw Gyffes, sister of Gwydion fab Dôn and Gilfaethwy. There is no father to Arianrhod's children. In the Trioedd Ynys Prydein, Arianrhod is given a different family tree, but that is probably somebody else also named Arianrhod.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">VI.<br />This is interesting: just a superficial read on Arianrhod will liken Her to the Minoan Ariadne. Both are the myth behind the constellation we now call Corona Borealis. The constellation, in our own astronomical tradition, is named after the crown Ariadne wore on her wedding day with Greek god Dionysos. The name "Ariadne" means "most holy", and it is a point of contention that she might actually be several goddesses and gods mashed up into one single myth (among them Athena, a weaving Goddess, and Poseidon, the Sea King and consort of the Earth). But one thing is certain: Ariadne was the lady of the Labyrinth, initiator of Theseus, the hero who slew the Minotaur at the center of the Labyrinth and came back to rise to the throne in his native Athens, through a thread given by Ariadne that showed him the way back out.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Through Her own Mabinogi myth, Arianrhod is especially related to the Mother Earth (both as Dôn and Bloddeuwedd), as well as Her whole family tree already mentioned. As the Initiator and Empowerer aspects of the Goddess, She is associated with Lleu Law Gyffes and all myths associated with Him: Lugh, Lugus, Loki, Loge and whoever else who also functions as Holly King I have never come across in my reading. And their counterparts too: Gwyddion, Odin, and all faces of the Oak King. In fact, Arianrhod being the Wheel Year patron deity, She is the Master of the game all cycle Gods and Goddesses play, including the Triple Goddess of the Moon (Maiden, Mother and Crone), the heterosexual pair of the Wiccan Wheel Year, Persephone and Dionysos Himself, the dying and resurrecting God. I call this figure The Dancer in the Labyrinth, because S/He dances to Arianrhod's music on Her ground, and as S/He shapeshifts, S/He is initiated and is empowered. To me, the Dancer in Her/His many guises is also an attribute of Arianrhod. But that's all UPG so take it or leave it.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Personally, I find a million things in common between Arianrhod and the Native American goddess of the Whirling Rainbow: both are associated with the circle/wheel, shapeshifting (into different races, or positions in society, or different powers for example), reincarnation and coming back, and as much as the Whirling Rainbow is actually a prophecy of the Navajo and the Hopi nations, it can certainly be argued that Arianrhod's curses upon Lleu were actually predictions of what would happen next in the boy's initiation process. Arianrhod is the Wheel Herself in the end, and She is the master of whole cycle. If she did not know what was coming next, who would?</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Also on the Personal Gnosis field, but fruit of years and years on this Path, I equate Arianrhod (mother of Lleu and Dylan, sister of Gwyddion and Gilfaethwy) with all Divine Mothers of Divine Twins: Ceridwen (mother of Creirwy and Afagddu/Morfran), Mari (Basque mother of Mikelatz and Atarrabi/Atxular, Leto (Greek mother of Apollo and Artemis), Nerthus/Njord (Scandinavian mother/father of Freyr and Freja) and Nana Buluku (Western African mother of Lisa and Mawa), and countless others, far too many to put a comprehensive list together. Most of these are also virgin mothers, just like Arianrhod and her dual pair of Divine Brothers Lleu-Dylan (Her own sons) and Gilfaethwy-Gwydion (Her brothers, sons of Dôn whose father is unknown, most probably inexistent). If I learned anything about Deity in this life, it's that a Parthenogenetic God, mother of Divine Twins is the oldest and most profound image of Divinity.</span></div>
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Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-31263344875152566652014-08-31T18:13:00.001+02:002014-08-31T18:13:58.733+02:0030 Day Deity Challenge<div style="text-align: justify;">
<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">August is finally coming to an end, and this year it was an especially intense month. Despite the intense resentment I feel for the FIFA World Cup for many (political) reasons, I owe it a huge one: because of it taking place in Brazil this year, the annual Goddess Spirituality Conference in São Paulo got postponed until early August, and that is when I visit my family and native country.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">When I moved to Madrid over seven years ago, my intense, passionate and fruitful spiritual life with its accompanying, glorious social aspect were put in the fridge. My new friends in Europe were certainly open-minded and chilled, but they all ridiculed, abhorred and rejected anything that was not sensorial, logical, linear-minded and, in my opinion, not spiritual. Or at least that is what it seemed like to me. So, I hid my Craft tools, shut up about my real impressions and feelings many times, and just played the game. It is not easy to tread an alternative spiritual path here in Deep Spain, and alternative here means pretty much anything that is not Catholic Christian. Witches and Pagan priests I met that came to live here never stayed longer than a year, and the small, local Pagan community I found here was for some reason difficult to relate to, on an energetic level, and as the years went by I heard at least two horror stories (quite literally) that made me only glad I never really integrated in the local scene.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">So, going back to Sampa for the Conference I had not attended in seven long years, and reconnecting with people who shared the Calling with me after so long was amazing. It re-lit the passion and the faith, and set the fire of my Divine Inspiration back on. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">For the three days of the conference I talked and wrote a lot about the Old Gods, about the Craft, about spiritual callings and about Inspiration, which I have long considered to be my main path. I would get to the hotel where it took place before 10 a.m., enjoy every second of the starry-eyed lecturers and facilitators sharing the fruits of their passion, work and inspiration, join the rituals in the evening and come back "home" at 9 p.m. for writing, researching and (re)weaving until the wee hours while the rest of São Paulo partied the weekend away. I was on fire.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">I went back to my parents in Rio, then I flew back to Spain. But the fire burned on for the rest of the month, and I did not hesitate to organise a local World Goddess Day gathering next Sunday, right next to an original Egyptian temple dedicated to the same goddess to whom this year's edition of the Goddess Spirituality Conference was dedicated, Isis, brought over and rebuilt right here in Madrid. For the gathering, I will lead a Spiral Dance, which is my favourite thing to do when priesting for a group activity, and the Spiral is a symbol of an elusive goddess that way long ago called me, and followed me for most of my adult life, never giving up on me no matter how clearly I stated that I had given up on understanding Her.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #660000; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">This month, after the Conference, the fire that burned on my head revealed much of Her to me. And I decided to heed the Call. I am giving next Sunday (just before the Spiral Dance) a short lecture on Arianrhod, a major Welsh goddess on whom, to the best of my knowledge, nobody has completed the 30-day deity challenge. <a href="http://obosquedojavali.blogspot.com.br/2014/07/30-semanas-para-endovelico.html?m=0" rel="nofollow" target="_blank">My druid friend who took this challenge himself</a> challenged me to do it today, and after failing to do the ice bucket challenge only yesterday I decided I would take this one up. I have only 29 days before I travel to India for a Yoga Teacher Training course, and I want to finish this before flying, and it is way too warm to sit here at the computer for too long. Also, I do not have access to much of what I read and researched about Arianrhod or Celtic myth over the years, thus this will look certainly a lot like pure personal gnosis and intuitive conclusions, but it does not need to be scholar work anyway. So, expect something short, undocumented and very, very dynamic.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">I am a creative being, here to create and in that help the Universe expand. In Creativity, Enthusiasm is fed in me, and I ground on Source and Self. A life in Enthusiasm means I am guided by my feelings of Passion. And that awakens in me the Knowledge supreme: my Truth, the Inner Light of God Herself that illuminates the Way and shines out in the world when I am aligned and leads me where I need to go. In other words, Vision. This cycle is completed with the boundless energy that I can tap to whenever I am willing to surrender to this divine perspective, follow the vision and abide by the Universal Law of Becoming--and this is what the book that triggered this whole thing called Hyperactivity: non-stop inspiration, daring, excitement and, well, action. When one is always on the move, the whole Universe moves along and things find their place by the constant, energised and divine motion. Power moves, and Magic is afoot. This leads to the creation of new conditions, experiences, results and gifts. The virtuous circle is complete.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">This was my way around the pentacle. Let's just look into weaving a path through: in owning my nature and reality of Creative being, I engage, I enquire, I experiment, I never stop. When this is sincere, Enthusiasm is stirred in me, and this very natural process is absolutely magical, given that no science, resources or even focused effort is required to keep up with the endless motion. A keeping with it, I am absolutely on track, always right, led by The Supreme Path to Bliss. I have the Vision. And I create my stellar reality by shining like a Star on Earth, as I was meant to do when I was born.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">I realise the divine element in my talents reading about this new pentacle. My writing has again become larger than what I thought it was, so I am using this entry to rename my blog. I am no longer focused on Time, timing, limitations, counting and stretches. I am weaving more of my writing magic here than on my paper notebook I bought to help Tibetan activits. This is my real, unlimited Book of Stars, and I am not ashamed, afraid or concerned that it is public. My magic is free, and it does indeed operate out in the World. I give it away with Love and in Power. Please witness it.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Throughout the coursebook, words like "shapeshifter" and "divine" showed up a lot on my notes, and dreams and travelling are trending topics in all parts of the book. When I had to match talent profiles from a list the author provided to me, I noticed several very real talents I knew I had were not there. I recalled how many times over I changed scenery following an inner call, how deeply free I really am to refuse letting anybody else define me, my resiliency and tendency to bob back up to the surface anytime I am pushed to the depth of waters, my undeniable ability to reinvent myself with sincere Passion.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">I swear I have magical powers. I have a magical brush and paint to paint doors where there are only walls, and to repaint my surroundings in a way that is more functional, pleasing and appropriate to me. I have a magic veil to alter the perception of my peers. I have a magic thread that leads me out of the Labyrinth so I have no fear of walking in to the core and so that I never ever get lost. I have a magical compass that always shows where my heart's desire is. I have magical wings to fly everywhere, and soar above too many things everybody else cannot even imagine are but an option within a wide range to choose from. I have a magical mirror that in one gaze shows me the truth about myself. And a magical book full of magical formulae, and magical glasses, and a magical pen with magical ink, and a magical wand to boot.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">I shift shape, read minds, see in the Future, phase out of alien bulshit I did not sign up for with incredible ease and sense of dignity. I speak the simple language of the primitive cuss in me that connects me to Timelessness and Infinite Wisdom, and I read the arcane signs of the Ancient Ones who left so many gifts and inspiration behind. I realise the Invisible, and stalk It, follow It, make friends with It, learn from It. I seek the unalienable truth. I cast spells, I purify endlessly, I focus, I create, I change, I make things happen. And, of course, I manipulate time. I know, I dare, I will, I keep silent. All the fucking time.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Much of this mage work is learned and extensively trained, and even bears a lot more improvement, but that does not make me less talented at all. Quite on the contrary, for one of the aspects of real talent is pleasure and the desire for more proficiency. I can guarantee I will not get enough of perfecting this ever.</span></div>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-55689940748821892602012-04-12T00:02:00.000+02:002012-04-15T22:13:47.664+02:00Talent Star<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: justify;">
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<br /><span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">I have just finished a very hands-on activity book called, "How to Discover Your Secret Talents". Pretty much the talents I finished the book aware of were the same-old, same-old I had been cultivating for a while. Namely, Creativity, Foresight, Enthusiasm, Hyperactivity and what I called Magic, that is very encompassing and probably deserves an entry of its own.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">I reckon that the only thing Nietzsche, Bugs Bunny, Julia Cameron, Abraham, my reverse role-models, a shitty childhood, meditation practice and the Crossroads have in common is that they all taught me again and again that the Power is in the decision you make, or pass. Or miss. We are all well-equipped to thrive and expand in life, there is no reason to feel oppressed at all, at least in most cases. But in a culture like the one we live in, we need constant and regular reminders of that if we are to fulfill our potential and break free for real. And this is why joining the Global Revolution on October 15th was such an exhilarating experience.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">On that day, yesterday as of this writing, countless common men and women left home and took the streets, wherever they lived. They chanted about justice and freedom, they spoke for themselves, and stated that nobody spoke for them. They walked in Beauty, and Love. It was something I had never seen before. And there is just no justice words and storytelling can do to that first-hand experience of self-transcendence.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">One degree in Journalism and all these years of life experience have not helped. I am still slightly amused and seriously outraged at the way media and haters tell the story. They make one car set on fire by some problem child the whole of what there is to hundreds of thousands of people vibrating on the clear frequency of Love in unison. They make us look like haters, victim-complexed and whiners, when in actuality we are just the opposite.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">We were not merely protesting. We were definetely not hating. We were affirming to each other (and to the short-sighted liars chickening on the top of this slaughterous pyramid) our manifested Power, our glory when we come together for the sublime purpose of co-creating, and our total absence of fear. In a state like this, sharing a such a beautiful moment with millions worldwide, we were coming together as more than people. We were purely divine.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Nobody knows where this is going, because there is no Yellow Brick Road to tread. We are not following somebody else's agenda. Real Democracy Now is an horizontal and very organic movement that has swept over all of the planet by now. There are still lands untouched, but that will not last long. I hear occasional cries of doubt among friends who are supportive of the movement and its ideals. And I have only one thing to tell them: whatever comes next, it is up to us only. The "system" is not an alien entity stronger and more resolute than you and me. The system is all of us together, assenting or dissenting, making decisions, or passing them. Or missing.</span></div>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-53691774336953125552011-10-09T22:27:00.004+02:002012-04-13T16:08:59.324+02:00Insatiable<div style="border: currentColor; text-align: justify;">
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">As I carve free time in my current life circumstances, I feel like I will never have enough. I have managed to set up the gay milonga with couchsurfers and non-couchsurfers going every second Saturday of the month, and it is actually afloat. I have got a solid schedule for homework from the German class and this terrible housekeeping thing that I hate so vividly. I apply three of Abe's processes (Focus Wheel, Affirmation, and Meditation) daily and I listen to the Vortex workshops on the metro every morning on my way to work, plus I do Morning Pages and Triple Soul work before breakfast. And I seem to be writing very regularly. But now that everything sounds fine, and I can finally get back to my comfortable limit with two creative projects going on simultaneously, I discover that not only can I afford music lessons every other week, La Tabacalera de Lavapiés (one of the coolest social enterprises in town) is offering Mandarin lessons for free again.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Once upon a time I was a helpless, full-time wannabe. Growing up in the rural suburbs of a dull city, all I could think about was ways to escape, and not until I was done with university and finished my first round of Julia Cameron's "The Artist's Way" could I leap beyond the fields those idiots surrounding me back then knew. I tore the chrysalis, spread my wings and flew away. I finally found a place I was not ashamed of calling home. That was back in 2005. My real life had finally just began, and it all happened within that year--including meeting the man I married. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">I began this blog. I took classes, I experimented, I explored, I exploded, I was hired, I was fired, I was hired again, I got lost, I got found, I was told lies, I learned how to tell a fabulous story, I learned the truth about myself and the Universe, I had the best sex of my life during that year. I made more real friends within 6 months than over the first 20 years of my fucking life. I loved till I bled. Then I dipped my fingertips in the blood, and painted beautiful things on the ground I stood, and wrote poetry on the walls bordering the way. I walked in Beauty, and I recorded the stories I had to tell.</span></div>
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<br /><span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Then, instead of growing roots, I decided to move forward. I moved to Spain. Now there was no doubt I was totally out of the fishtank. I was a foreigner, I could barely speak the language, I made people laugh unintentionally. Best part is, I met a million others like me. A whole online social network of us. I was exhilarated, and I didn't want the fairytale to end. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">And then I got sidetracked. I can only assume it happened when I decided that instead of exploring brand new creative possibilities, I wanted to deepen in what I was paying off more beautifully. So I acquired my fourth and fifth languages, travelled further out into the North and East, became a queer tanguero, learned a million new recipes till I could cook the perfect veggie meal. And resolved to get a paid day job. And dumped music. And writing. No wonder after all this time I look around and cannot see my creative work, other than a very creative life I've been living.</span></div>
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<br /><span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">I do not complain, but this Autumn I got many people from that magical year come back to the spotlight of my online social life... One is published. The other is talking about the process of being published. The other just silently shines a little light from the other side of the planet, and the light shines all the way through to me. And the São Paulo gang, one by one, is slowly gathering on my Google+ Friends circle.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">After six years, all I have to show for is what I have lived. The memories. The stories I have to tell, but have not told so far.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #783f04; font-family: "Trebuchet MS", sans-serif;">Are you willing to listen?</span></div>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-75878596807421174932011-09-26T22:05:00.001+02:002017-01-22T21:53:58.548+01:00Function of Time #5: Energy<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-6WzlkxYUrXc/ToDbWz-2abI/AAAAAAAAOuk/R1Esh291Vic/s1600/spiral-clock.jpg"><img alt="" border="0" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5656762316934769074" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/-6WzlkxYUrXc/ToDbWz-2abI/AAAAAAAAOuk/R1Esh291Vic/s320/spiral-clock.jpg" style="cursor: hand; float: right; height: 314px; margin: 0px 0px 10px 10px; width: 320px;" /></a><span style="color: #663333; font-family: trebuchet ms;">Before rythmn comes Energy.<br /><br />It took me a while to realise that. I fell prey to my old fantasy of time shortage for a long time. I fret over age, I resented time-consuming responsibilities, I cut down on comfort, I walked the cutting edge. All to save time I realise now I have never even used. Now I have decided to let go of this imaginary fear, and go back to 9-to-6'ing.<br /><br />It sucks for a large part, but I also benefit a lot from it: a stable income will allow me to explore in depth aspects of my Passion, a regular routine will give me structure and support for leaping and launching rockets of desire, building a career will let me reward those who help me and light up my fuse. And more.<br /><br />The other side to that is that it really sucked up most of my stamina in this beginning. I work in a well-concealed hide-out way up North everyday, and after getting home from the long ride with connections I felt exhausted and wanted little more than having dinner and collapsing in bed to feel less sleepy at the office the next day.<br /><br />But tonight the feeling has changed. Maybe it's just temporary excitement about my German class beginning tomorrow in the evening after work, but I'm really eager to use my evenings now. Way more than in my old life, before I got back to day-jobbing. I want to get back to making Music, be finally serious with Mandarin, astral-travel, queer-tango, cook. And go back to blogging about The Fine Art of Time Manipulation.<br /><br />I have realised this job has energised me. And if I have Energy, I have plenty of Time. In that feeling, I am Eternity.<br /><br />All I have to do now is feel the beat, and put a natural rythmn to this song. I'm sorry I missed this important one beat and did not wish a merry Equinox to all my friends all over the World this season. Many blessings of Light and Dark, of up and downbeat. Life would be terribly boring and meaningless without them.</span>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-10385408644194093792011-03-13T17:57:00.003+01:002011-03-13T20:00:09.122+01:00Mother Monster<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-QWsFaM0XuDw/TXz4C2lvw7I/AAAAAAAAOsY/1p3Rt3QN8F8/s1600/sheelanagig.JPG"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 317px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5583610365929833394" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/-QWsFaM0XuDw/TXz4C2lvw7I/AAAAAAAAOsY/1p3Rt3QN8F8/s320/sheelanagig.JPG" /></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#663333;">I am no fan of Lady GaGa. Pretty much everything I've seen by her so far is boring and dull at best, and just plain sick on average. I have refused to talk or write about her especially here on my blog because in this crazy time in which we live everything is advertising, and in our ultimate vibrational reality whatever we focus on manifests. But this morning I saw a video that really got to me, and spoken so much to me that my feelings are still confused.<br /><br />It is called "Born This Way". In a nutshell, it is the average parade of emaciation, androginy, and vigorous choreography that is too half-cocked to show full nakedness and real, natural sexuality. But this is not your average MTV video. Maybe I am too sensitive at this point, but the symbolism and references she presents this time run too deep not to heed the call of an artist not used to knowing what she is talking about.<br /><br />In the creation myth at the very beginning, she tells of the Eternal Mother hovering the Multiverse, and giving birth to Divine Twins, one that is perfect liberty and the other being protective evil. This rang too deep a bell within me not to let the whole song (with a very positive message, for a drastic and welcome change) get to me. At the same time, she presents herself, a celebrity and brand-name accused of enormous vileness and celebrated as the redeemer of the oppressed, as not just beyond good and evil, but the creatrix of both. She used a myth older than Time and a fundamental truth of the deepest human nature and origin to legitimate and consolidate her music-selling business with astounding success and unbelievable coldness.<br /><br />Yes, I am torn. Just like the Mother Monster of the video.<br /><br />Lady GaGa has always been monstruous. The dance number on blood that got her international attention got people doubting she would be able to keep up with the extreme appeal, and the meat dress on the cover of Rolling Stone freaked the shit outta vegetarian me, personally. The crippled woman dance on one of her videos haunted me for days after I watched it. Her sex appeal is not just violent, it's anti-sexy and repressive in many ways. Far beyond music, her career is being repulsive. This video is not different. She's the usual monster. But she's Mother Monster this time. She is, to effect, the Mother Monster protrayed on the video, and she is not ashamed of it. Why should she be?<br /><br />Why should we all be ashamed?<br /><br />This piece has a real message, and I got it. And I agree with it. And it makes my spirit fly.<br /><br />But the visuals are still repulsive.<br /><br />Image: The Sheela-na-Gig, from <a href="http://www.hohochiheaven.co.uk/">http://www.hohochiheaven.co.uk/</a>.</span>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-29952671383937364212011-02-06T23:34:00.003+01:002011-02-06T23:40:26.794+01:00Breath and Water<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/TU8jP_TlX3I/AAAAAAAAOrA/S7cQdMu-Fp4/s1600/WaterBreath.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 160px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5570710021679177586" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/TU8jP_TlX3I/AAAAAAAAOrA/S7cQdMu-Fp4/s200/WaterBreath.jpg" /></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#663333;">I know some very interesting things, and I keep learning the Craft of the Wise in new forms, and new ways. Learning comes from many places. The Path my feet keep coming back to has made me pretty much a water witch, and breathwork has been a discipline I have been a little constantly, a little in-and-out exploring. In phases like this, I feel like I know a lot.<br /><br />I know how to realign with Source, cleanse, store life-force, restore my Being and reenergise using my breath. I know how to unbind, heal my Self, let go and invite the Light using water. I know how to breathe Light into water, and make some serious magic. Light-heart-edly.<br /><br />I keep learning.<br /><br />Image from <a href="http://positron.net76.net/">Pavel Melnikov's website</a>.</span>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-27496536561563567922011-01-18T16:22:00.006+01:002011-01-18T18:17:54.794+01:00The Water Pentacle<div align="justify"><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/TTWxdhOFvQI/AAAAAAAAOq0/ZMEbSWzKF3c/s1600/Blue-starfish1.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 300px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 224px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5563548035377904898" border="0" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/TTWxdhOFvQI/AAAAAAAAOq0/ZMEbSWzKF3c/s400/Blue-starfish1.jpg" /></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#663333;">We are stars on Earth, sang many mystical poets in many different languages and times. But throughout life, and the immersion in a culture that does not really support individual stardom, we were trained to stifle the inner fireworks and shy away from shedding our Light. The poets kept singing though, inspiring us to be naturally bright and help make the world even more beautiful and interesting with our unique gifts and joy in Being, but at some point we forget how. For good. And some of these poets devise pathways and songs to help us remember and reawaken. And shine on.<br /><br />Victor Anderson taught the Copper Decagram to several generations of witches until his death ten years ago. Even though it is not really known whether he devised them himself or learned from somebody else, the Iron and Pearl Pentacles have been inspiring people all over the world to ignite the inner fires and shine their unique light on the inner and outer worlds.<br /><br />Abraham, the collective of non-physical teachers translated by Esther Hicks, teaches in actuality little more than the divine nature of us all, gut-feeling wisdom and this marvellous Stream of Well-Being we are all rolling with. This Stream, the stuff of life itself, is God, the Source, the one and only light that shines in and through all stars of the Universe, that soothes and sweeps us away from wisdom to even more wisdom, from plenitude to enhanced plenitude. From love back to love again.<br /><br />Based on both bodies of teachings, I have devised my own “third pentacle”, as one disciple of Anderson calls the systems created after his Iron and Pearl Pentacles, based on the parallels I have found between his teachings and those of Abraham. Inspired by Abraham’s marvellous metaphor of life as a stream, where “nothing you really want is upstream”, I have called it the Water Pentacle. In my personal practice, it has become a wonderful and actually divine tool for awareness and connection with the divinity present in life, in my own Self, in the present moment.<br /><br />Just like the experience of the Iron and Pearl Pentacles were taught to me by more than one teacher, with the Water Pentacle, you can run and call the points as you lay as a starfish in two ways (among countless others): round and through.<br /><br />On your head is the point of <strong>Expansion</strong>. Expansion represents here the meaning of life itself. It is the blossom and fructifying of Sex and Love, and the full realisation of the being here in physical manifestation, on the Leading Edge of Thought, in this glorious earthly reality where we experience contrast and shock, make choices, decide, shoot rockets of desire, refine our feelings, attract what is like to us, and ultimately help the Universe expand.<br /><br />On your left hand, the point representing <strong>The Source</strong> shines. The Source is really the place from which we all come, but never got disconnected. It is in every single aspect of you. In your dominant and subtle intents, in the intents of each cell of your body, and your shared intent as community. From the Source’s perspective, all intents are equally worthy, and all is well. The Source is undeniable; and for you are Source Energy, The Source is YOU. It is what witches would call God Herself, in whom we live, move and have our being. “From Her all things emerge, and unto Her all things return”. She is the reason why we are here, because our desires are Hers, and through them She experiences Herself, expands and grows in love and beauty.<br /><br />On your left foot, you have your point of <strong>Guidance</strong>. Guidance is the resilient, persistent and very reliable voice of inner Wisdom that (no matter how shunned, repressed and ignored) tells you how far from the Source you are or not. It comes in the form of Passion, raw gut feelings and all other emotions. Your Guidance is Wisdom, it will never fail you, because it is your gut, your in-tuition, your proof of connection to God, and only it can reveal how stagnant, flowing or rotten the Water from your Star is. Nobody else.<br /><br />On your right foot is the point of <strong>Becoming</strong>. As you awaken and become aware of Source, let yourself expand with it by desiring and following the inner Guidance wherever It leads you, you learn to take Pride in who you are, and become something more than what you were. Becoming is actually one of the very few real Laws of the Universe, and there is no escaping from it without paying more than one can afford.<br /><br />On your right hand stands <strong>Allowing</strong>. Allowing is the ultimate Power we have in this life, and its our absolutely natural and default Nature. It is giving up on all lies and resistance against the Stream, holding on to useless attachments and complexes, and finally saying YES to the healing and exciting ride on divine waters. It takes us to places, because we have Become something else through alignment with Source, awareness of our Guidance and commitment to Expansion. If this is not Liberty, I do not know what is.<br /><br />Around the Water Pentacle you have a way of Alignment motivated by willpower and intent, whereas upon moving through It you realise the points from a slightly different perspective, which enriches the realisations you had as you ran around the star: you have the support, love, confirmation and nurturing every time.<br /><br /><strong>Expansion</strong> is the reason why we are all here. We are evolving perfection, not bored, just exercising the thrill and glorious joy that lust and desire give us.<br /><br />We expand by <strong>Becoming</strong>. Something more, something else, something that has no need to fit in descriptions or pre-conceived concepts. It’s one of the most freeing experiences we have, and this is why it is so empowering and central in a well-lived life.<br /><br /><strong>The Source</strong> becomes more through our own Becoming, and It is always backing us, and calling us back to It. Our existence is Its proof, our Expansion is all It expects, our Becoming is Its joy. It is just that simple.<br /><br /><strong>Allowing</strong> is the experience of moving on from The Source and simultaneously going back to It. Allowing is not working hard to modify circumstances, follow rules and play roles. It is not giving others parts of the Self. It is not exercising force, either. It is going with the flow and trusting the Stream, with grace, freedom and great dignity.<br /><br />All along the way, <strong>Guidance</strong> will keep you on track. It will never let go of you, especially if you let go of oars, shame, guilt, vanity and need for control. And the opinions, experience and judgements of somebody else. Only you know what is good and appropriate for you, and this is the promise from The Source. The way you feel, in your gut, is just what you need in order to tell if it is really on or off. If you are heading downstream or paddling upstream.<br /><br />There are infinite different ways to experience the Water Pentacle. Some I have also been using other than Starfish energy work are journaling, dreaming, creative writing, singing, drumming and dance. Get acquainted with it the way it calls you to, and own the experience itself. Let everything else go back to The Source.<br /><br />In the end, this Water Pentacle is little more than a sophisticated idea, and ideas are as good as this. Take it into consideration if possible, exercise if suitable, celebrate if desired, discard if preferred, live it out if you must, pass it forward if you will. But do not claim anybody own a very basic truth of our existence. Abraham, Victor, or me. Or you. We are all, absolutely all of us, Stars on Earth.<br /><br />If you are interested in the Iron and Pearl Pentacles, check veedub’s </span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#663333;"><a href="http://www.lulu.com/content/3023755">DustBunny Big Damn Handout</a>, or her articles on <a href="http://www.wiggage.com/witch/fericontents.html">her personal website</a></span><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#663333;">. Obviously you can also just google them up. If you are curious about the Teachings of Abraham, the Hickses have free introductory material available on <a href="http://www.abraham-hicks.com/">their website</a>. Feel free to search for Abraham-Hicks on Youtube, too. Watching Esther doing it live is one of the most thrilling things I have ever seen.<br /><br />Explore. And flow on.</span></div>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-32907324984182597662010-12-31T12:46:00.002+01:002010-12-31T12:49:14.233+01:00New Year Resolution '11<a href="http://www.monochrom.at/polytheism/pictures/TanzenderShiva.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 368px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 532px; CURSOR: hand" border="0" alt="" src="http://www.monochrom.at/polytheism/pictures/TanzenderShiva.jpg" /></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;"><span style="color:#663333;">Heeding the Music<br />That guides me around<br />I loosen, unshackle,<br />and lift off the ground<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#663333;"><em>As the beat won't stop<br />I'll flow and I'll rock<br />I'll stomp and repeat<br />And follow the beat<br />And dance on ad lib<br />And never have fear </em><br /><br />And if it's down tempo<br />I vow to sway and remain<br />Focused on basic routines<br />Serene, no rushing the train<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#663333;"><em>As the beat won't stop<br />I'll flow and I'll rock<br />I'll stomp and repeat<br />And follow the beat<br />And dance on ad lib<br />And never have fear </em><br /><br />And above all the casting<br />Of spells, binds and charms<br />I offer undivided attention<br />to the song of my heart<br /><br /></span><span style="color:#663333;"><em>As the beat won't stop<br />I'll flow and I'll rock<br />I'll stomp and repeat<br />And follow the beat<br />And dance on ad lib<br />And never have fear </em><br /></span></span>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-19620658003279294372010-12-21T17:20:00.004+01:002010-12-31T12:53:06.464+01:00Tree<a href="http://www.seattlemetalcraft.com/images/30-inch-Spiral-Tree-175.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 374px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 499px; CURSOR: hand" border="0" alt="" src="http://www.seattlemetalcraft.com/images/30-inch-Spiral-Tree-175.jpg" /></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#663333;">My Autumn this year was very creative, as I knew it would be after a Spring of plowing and sowing and a Summer of expansion and celebration. Harvest was marvellous, and I can barely believe I've manifested for myself such amazing opportunities. My German teacher this year is awesome, very experient and very, very good. I'm always inspired in the class, and I learn from her not just a lot of German, but also how to be a better language teacher. I've found myself a Queer tango group here in Madrid, and have become a decent queer tanguero, pretty skilled in both roles, leader and follower. I'm so proud of my musical skills, that everytime I sit to improvise on the keys, or vocalise a little bit, or burst out in song, I feel shocked. And I haven't been drifting and bouncing around, looking for affection and sympathy, anymore. I've built a romance to remember in Italy earlier this month. I'm mature.<br /><br />I've been away from my studies and training in the Craft of the Wise, though. My Craft is definetely still with me, and is very much a second nature, which I'm thankful for, but with so much going on, a strong desire to simplify in order to see clearly, and a heightened sense of responsibility in this advanced stage of my Saturn's Return, I was not willing to overburden myself with more. The Craft knows how to lurk in the shadows (always present!) before coming back to the spotlight.<br /><br />I feel it's time to come back, though. Before the late sunrise in this shortest day of the year, I woke up several times with vivid and intense dreams and messages from the Otherworld. By now, almost time for the earliest sunset I'll see in a year, I've got only memories of strange characters and a clear message to go back to the Ways of the Land. I know what I will be busy with this Winter instead.<br /><br />It's Midwinter today, and I had plan to enjoy the following many days off work and school to bask in my very fresh Music gift. But I guess I will also dedicate to taking small, baby steps back to the Old Ways my feet know well. I'm a seasoned witch, and a creative being in a personal zenith. Nothing has ever been out of reach, but with a tree of my nature the branches stem and move a long way from the trunk. I'll navigate my personal Tree of Life this coming season, and recount, revisit, retrieve, reground. And learn more. And keep growing. And move on.<br /><br />Sincerity let me will. Trust made me dare. Simplicity helped me know. Wisdom led me to keep silent. Now I resolve to know myself in all my parts, so that I'm ready when the time to blossom comes around once again. </span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;color:#663333;"></span><br /><span style="font-family:Trebuchet MS;font-size:85%;color:#663333;">Image: Spiral tree from <a href="http://www.seattlemetalcraft.com/">Seattle Metal Craft</a>.</span>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-3285273390203236752010-08-24T05:06:00.001+02:002010-08-24T05:08:12.888+02:00Fountain of Youth<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/THM3dukUZoI/AAAAAAAANkU/UoS4EsWH1Yc/s1600/boto-cor-de-rosa2.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 320px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 213px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5508807753060345474" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/THM3dukUZoI/AAAAAAAANkU/UoS4EsWH1Yc/s400/boto-cor-de-rosa2.jpg" /></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#663333;">2010. What a Summer. I feel like my real life began just now.<br /><br />Berlin was everything I always wanted to experience: daily dates with highly interesting men, easy and reliable friendships, flaneuring, bike riding, tango, music and a little bit of Witchcraft, all very well-balanced. Cologne was hawt: the coolest Pride ever, a handsome Summer affair, kinky stickers, tight underwear moments shared with a semi-stranger. Swansea was a melodic composition of music, silence, scandal and nothing-left-to-say. São Paulo was my fix and my eventual realisation that I have changed: silly social situations that offered very little, deep conversations on a new level with old friends, the clear paradox of loneliness in companionship and all it can teach about yourself and your needs. And Rio was all the crucible I resolved to use to begin life anew, and then some.<br /><br />Today, in the last week of this super-magical and super-intense Summer, I've had the first professional reading in many years. An Obi lady, at a Umbanda house with a terrible vibe and lots of Catholic-Santería synchretic images, told me too many things about myself, my spiritual configuration, Water deities that patronise me, my past and my future. And the waterfall of memories, insight and resolutions that followed helped empower me again, after such a long time without proper grounding.<br /><br />I discovered so much. When she told me that at the age of about 3 I was already leaving apart from my parents, and at the age of 9 I was already a lonely adult, I realised everything I missed my whole life: learning about relationships, learning to love and accept other people's emotions in a constructive way, music, adventures, playfulness. She said, "you were already an adult". And later on she insisted with me that I was young. In fact, she began the reading with the words, "you're still very young". And together with that the memories of bosses and lovers accusing me of being childish and immature cascaded in my mind. But with the new information of myself, shared with me with an astounding serenity, instead of feeling overwhelmed I was able to connect the dots and realise the Red Thread of my life. I haven't learned the mystery of Age in practice yet. This was priceless, even though the reading was very expensive.<br /><br />I stayed the whole day with the hurt feeling and the understanding that my inner child needs attention, companionship and space to be an actual child. My inner child still begs to be taken care of, shown things about Self and others, played with, taken out to play. I need emotional education, like most of humankind. And I'm determined to provide myself with all I need, especially healing.<br /><br />I've already journeyed to meet with my Inner Child tonight. What I learned was much and still being processed, but I already look different in the mirror. Mirror work is part of the tasks assigned by the reader, and I know I need it. The basics of Time Manipulation have it that to understand that when I know the way and am determined, Time's on my side.<br /><br />Watch me as I grow younger now.<br /><br />Image: Boto, a river dolphin from the Amazon.</span>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-81542445017689849532010-06-27T23:31:00.002+02:002010-06-27T23:34:55.356+02:00Weitertrauen<a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/TCfDuStECFI/AAAAAAAANkM/mQUpQGnxdaM/s1600/Img+1469.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 400px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 300px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5487569871036483666" border="0" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/TCfDuStECFI/AAAAAAAANkM/mQUpQGnxdaM/s400/Img+1469.jpg" /></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#663333;">After succeeding in all examinations at school and returning from my 2 days in Barcelona, I've spent quite a few days preparing Germany. I am going to hit a major personal landmark by getting there. The German language was my final fantasy of capricious youth before diving head-first into full adulthood and strict responsibility for my life, my decisions and my chronic thought patterns. I embraced the tongue of poets and thinkers like a worthy lover, like there was no tomorrow, and I allowed in all emotions, vistas, lore and possibilities it encompassed. Two years later, one "next little step" after another, I've managed to find myself a two-week inmersion in one of the most vibrant cities in the West. Berlin. And the hottest Pride parade in Europe to boot. Köln.<br /><br />And I want to be ready if this most huge baby step unfolds and makes for another. I will just keep saying Yes.<br /><br />Image: me, loving life in Parc de la Ciutatela, one week ago in Barcelona.</span>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-48071807170116394052010-05-28T15:35:00.002+02:002010-05-28T15:40:05.017+02:00Still on<a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/S__HniIKKyI/AAAAAAAANkE/SNzMHUUpX-g/s1600/Deutsche-Herz.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 200px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 164px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5476315153895664418" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/S__HniIKKyI/AAAAAAAANkE/SNzMHUUpX-g/s200/Deutsche-Herz.jpg" /></a><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;font-size:85%;color:#663333;">My story with the German language sounds too much like a sugary love story, with the perfect combination of serendipty and obstacles. And overcoming.<br /><br />It all began when my vocal coach and I started a new Lied by Mozart, "Warnung", and then "Abendempfindung". Mozart is good for singing students, and I particularly love his songs. And that Jessye Norman's interview I had read several years ago still echoed in my mind. She was giving concerts in Brazilian cities and the newspaper my father subscribed to asked her if she was singing anything in Portuguese, to which she replied, "oh no, I'm sorry but I only sing in a language I can speak, it's more honest with the audience". So I figured that if I was going to sing in German, it would be less than artistic to do so without an understanding of what I was saying--and no, a translation in mind wouldn't do.<br /><br />So, serendiptiously, a friend on Facebook invited me to this language learning online community still in its Beta version and free, Livemocha. They had an online course that wasn't really that good, but the community was vibrant, helpful and thriving. People actually helped each other without any expectation of reward. On there, I made several new friends, some of which recommended me further sources and tools, and I got from Ina, a German teacher of her native language in Paris, the heads-up for Deutsche Welle, which along with its amazing, free courses and podcasts (that I use to this day), became one of my favourite playgrounds in the web. I was with the Deutsch Interaktiv course for less than a year, but I completed the whole thing. During this time, I also had a language exchange with my German friend Tatjana, and after a whole year learning together, we flew to Zürich for Europride, and I enjoyed the opportunity to talk to the locals in German, and did pretty well.<br /><br />Now, all of this was between Summer'08 and Spring '09. In May '09 I took an entrance exam at the local language school here in my neighbourhood (language learning in Europe is so cheap, convenient and easy!). Nobody I told, not even myself at first flush, could believe the results: after one year without classes or presential courses, they gave me the fourth year of the whole six-year program, corresponding to level B1.2 of the Common European Framework for Languages!<br /><br />I was so enthusiastic about German now, that I resolved to make it the center of my life. Everything else I had invested in didn't work, but German did, and so smoothly that I didn't have the heart to deny a single second of my free time to this beautiful, beautiful language. So I invested the whole Summer in taking yet another course on Deutsche Welle's website, and got ready for another year of immense headway.<br /><br />Then came Autumn, and because I had been unemployed, the Spanish government gifted me with a free course in Webdesigning. The course, aimed at unemployed people, was fulltime and every single day of the week, and I couldn't go to the language school until well into December. But I never let go of the position there, waiting for me.<br /><br />When I finally managed to receive my first live lesson in German ever, I left the classroom with mixed feelings. I was much more able to speak and communicate in the language than I had imagined, and with real books and a class structure, I had such a marvellous nourishing environment that as a language teacher myself I knew would be extremely beneficial to me. But the teacher was an idiot. So were all of my classmates.<br /><br />Of course, the whole thing by then had affected my ego, but the way my peers at school, teacher and fellow students, behaved was so disheartening that it was hard for me to adapt to that. I held my ground and exercised my patience, but also spoke only German during the class, brought always my monolingual dictionary with me, handed in all homework on time, arrived punctual, seized every second of every lesson, kept track of time and goals of every exercise, joined all group activities with a vision of learning and camaraderie. Even though none of the colleagues did so. And even though the teacher discouraged it.<br /><br />Now the course has come to an end. Wednesday was our last class, and we were left with 40% of the book/contents blank and untouched. And the friends were confused. And the teacher was looking like a failure in front of the class. And I was a bit brokenhearted, since I had been living a romantic dream with those lessons, not just a chore.<br /><br />They spent the whole year messing around and letting it all down the drain. Over these last couple of weeks, they were asking me for private lessons while waiting for the teacher, always late. I gave them. Now I'm sure until the final examinations, in middle of June, I'll have them ask me again. But I'll refuse this time. I don't need to feed their bad habits. They need to ask that from the teacher, not from a friend they laughed at. I need to focus and work on the contents that weren't taught in class, so that I don't miss this opportunity and fail in the finals. We've got much to study. I want to pass, and I know how to do this. I have done before.<br /><br />I know this is the next hurdle, and I'm ready for it.</span>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4318729448681278865.post-63334164741429960592010-05-25T15:41:00.003+02:002010-05-25T15:43:26.338+02:00Grace<a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/S_vT80e4cjI/AAAAAAAANj0/aJAu3uVKqDY/s1600/Awaken.jpg"><img style="MARGIN: 0px 0px 10px 10px; WIDTH: 237px; FLOAT: right; HEIGHT: 400px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5475202813832753714" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_RHyc4MVayS8/S_vT80e4cjI/AAAAAAAANj0/aJAu3uVKqDY/s400/Awaken.jpg" /></a><br /><div><span style="font-family:trebuchet ms;color:#663333;">It doesn't matter how much abuse you've suffered, or what happened to you, if you show yourself everyday the Grace that there is in the love your Divine Parent has for you, and the natural state of being that Love is, you will realise what is true and what is not. You will realise yourself. And this means taking nobody else's shit.<br /><br />Today I am thankful.</span> </div>Awenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10533670733308274616noreply@blogger.com0